I started to write something different but when I sat down at the computer, all I could think about was how much I just needed to be honest. Some days are harder than others to focus on the positive. Some days, that silver lining is a little more elusive. And yes, even though I'm a preacher's wife, sometimes God seems just a little further away.
My first reaction is usually to try and keep my feelings locked up tight inside, like I'm keeping a secret from the Lord. Yet He knows me inside and out, knows my every thought before I even think it. So I am fairly confident that when I am wrestling and questioning and basically heartsick, that He knows. It's best to just get it on out there, tell Him out loud exactly how I feel, even if that means admitting that I'm mad at Him. He's a big God. He can take it. Once it's out there, then He and I can start dealing with it. The healing can begin.
Does that sound anything like you or am I the only one?
Anyway, I heard from so many of you through email, text, Facebook and comments here and I am most appreciative. Thank you for giving me the freedom to share despite the fact that the cold hard truth can be quite ugly at times.
So here's my question for you today:
What do you do when you're at the end of your rope? Pray? Bake? Walk? Call a friend?
For example, after I spent quite a bit of the morning just wallowing around, I got up and cleaned out my pantry. It turned out to be the perfect thing, that little "kick in the pants" that I needed to get going again, to take my mind totally off Lily and helmets and hitting and therapy..... Afterwards, I felt like my mind was almost as clean as my pantry - trash thrown out, necessities back in place and everything neatly organized.
Sounds a little silly, but it worked for me.
So tell me - what do you do when you feel like you're about to snap?